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Category: PERSONAL ESSAY

  • A Heart & An Existence

    By Emmanuel Williams How the hell’d we wind up like this? Am I happy? Not yet! Do you love someone? Not yet! I don’t even love Jesus, right now, I love porn, alcohol, and evey single fucking cigarette I have to myself. But I don’t have a cuddle, squeeze, or… of course there’s a crush…

  • Let’s Have a Toast

    By Emmanuel Williams I think it’s time to have a toast. Let’s have a toast for disrespect. Let’s have a toast for laziness. For the douchebags, the assholes, scumbags, and jerk offs. Because all these qualities and quirks are what make it difficult for the actually hard working, honorable, and respectable person to be trusted.…

  • The Story So Far

    By Emmanuel Williams What they wanted from me was that I wasn’t blind. That I drove a fancy car so I could be reliable to them. Maybe they could arrive in style. Forget what it cost me. Forget all my other assets. Forget that I may have reason not to be who they needed me…

  • The Bigger Love Life Problem

    By Emmanuel Williams I don’t know. I can’t mention her name, but I’m pretty sure a crush has re-awoken. For me if not for her. I may have an upcoming shot to talk to her one on one and my mind is top-heavy on fantasies about us. The biggest problem is I think we’d be…

  • She Would Hold My Arm

    By Emmanuel Williams I met my son Johnny’s mother at the Center for Performing Arts Complex in Downtown Denver almost 10 years ago now. We weren’t attending any show. In fact, it was the middle of the morning and nothing was playing at that time of day. You see, we were two homeless nomads whose…